Hard times…!

I wish i could cry,i wish i could scream,

And vent and thrash,instead i sit quietly,

While you tell me,I’m selfish and wrong,

I wish you could see,

All the horrid thoughts i have.

I wish you could hear,

All the horrible things i say in my head.

I wish you could hear the lectures

I drill in my own mind.

If you could,you would know,

You don’t need to lecture me

I do enough of that for ten proffessors

And twelve priests.

If you could see and hear,

Maybe you could understand

Why i always look angry or sad.

Its because even on my good days.

I am sad.angry.confused.guilty.

How did this happen to me?

Why do i feel this way?

I wish you could hear.see.feel.

Then,you might actually understand.

Some.a little.someday.

Depressed………..!

I’m broken

And unspoken.

Want to cry,

Sometimes die.

But then i think

Strong you have to be,

Put a happy face on.

And must go on

Don’t let nobody know.

That your slowly gone.

Is going to be hard

Trust nobody with your heart,

With your feelings,you trust

They will let you down

Just because.