demons in your head

I wish there was a way to kill yourself and see how everyon who you knew reacts and then depending on that choose whether to stay alive or not if that wer e the case is kill myself right this second the sad thing is nobody ever knows how much anyone else is hurting we could be standiǹ next to somebody who is completely broken and we wouldn’t even know it twinkle twinkle little star let me get hit by a car how I really wish to die jump of the roof and try to fly twinkle twinkle little knife help me and this wretched life the demons are back and stronger than ever they are looking for a flight looking to win and this time I might just let them

depression

it is sad that some people aren’t waiting for their happy ending anymore they’re just waiting for the end and suddenly nothing even mattered anymore all I wanted was to sleep forever I don’t even know what’s wrong with me any more im used to it in used to people leaving I’m n used to bring all alone I’m used to having no one so just go leave I’m used to anyway I can’t swim any longer I can’t hold my breath I’ve been trying so hard but the waves are slowly pulling me under and I think i ‘ll let them I wanted to write down exactly how I felt but somehow the paper stayed empty and I could not have described it and I could not have described it any better honestly I hold in a lot when I’m upset I really don’t like to tell anyone especially the person wh o made me that way no matter how much anyone asks the answer will always be in fine even if it’s not true

A Suicide note:

If you haven’t noticed

the scars on my hips

or the fake smiles on my lips

Or the forced laughs that I’ve adopted

or the way I don’t care

about the things that I used to love

then don’t you dare stand

at my grave and cry

how can you cry for someone

that you don’t even know?

I don’t have a flat stomach

I don’t have gorgeous clothes

I don’t have long,lovely hair

I don’t have perfect nails,or perfect lips

I have scars on my body

I have cried myself to sleep more times

than I can count

I have a heart

and I’ve had it broken

I have had my trust thrown on my face

but I will love you endlessly

I will love you completely

just please don’t hurt me

I can’t take it