in loving memory i miss you always brother

my heart has been left broken

since the day you had to go

and the memories i treasure dearly

are in the tears that still flow

you’re in my thoughts everyday

and thats how it will always be

for you may be up in heaven

but you’ll always be with me

if only i could have the chance

to see your face once more

or to hear your voice one final time

just like it was before

the day that heaven calls me

will be a relief from all the pain

i’ll run to you with open arms

and we’ll meet again

i miss u brother

i think about you always

i think about you still

you have never been

forgotten

and you never will

i hold you close

within my heart

and there you you will

remain

to walk with me throughout

my life

until we meet again

i’m depressed right now

Sometimes i just wish i didn’t have to be strong …and say i’m fine…sometimes i just wish someone would look me in the eyes and tell me that it’s OK not to be strong all the time.

When i’m fighting to hold back tears but i just wanna cry,but sometimes you just have to hold back tears,pretend to be OK and just keep getting up everyday like nothings wrong even though deep down your just longing to tell someone about your feelings.I wish i was a little girl again so when i am upset i could get away with crying in my mums arms and not be told i’m a baby.

You only know half my story….

I may smile but you never notice the pain in my eyes….

I may talk to be polite but you don’t hear me mentally whispering for help…

I may look ok because i get up everyday but deep down i just don’t wanna be here…

You may sometimes see my tears but u never know why…

You don’t understand unless u know my past…

As tears stroll down my face i just wanna die…

emotionally numb

when ur hurting so much u can no longer feel anything.

i am ready to leave this place

forget about everyone i know

pack up and dissappear

i am tired of the memories

that linger around every corner

or the meaningless routine

that is draining my soul away

i am ready to go

no goodbyes or explanations

i am ready

to start over.

dying inside

sometimes im in so much pain,i forget how to breathe.i cant even cry.all i can do is feel the knife of the flashbacks being pushed into my chest over and over again.